Monday, October 13, 2008

I'm Done

This post was going to be titled "Goodbye Cruel World."

It was going to truly be a goodbye. A divorce from this connection to politics.

To know why, you need to know something.

The past six months have been an absolute roller coaster for me. Physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.

While some of my friends have been privy to some of the pieces of the puzzle, none of them have been able to see the whole thing.

I've been bottling everything up. I would release the pressure a little, but it wasn't enough. This was part of the reason that I have avoided phone calls and emails from people. If one of these people is you, I apologize. It's not you, it's me. Literally.

The funny thing is, I saw it, yet didn't recognize it.

Things really went downhill early last week, and I really didn't know what to do next. I hit bottom, but still put on a good face.

An associate of mine noticed that I needed to talk, and talk I did.

Everything was on the table. No stone unturned, as they say.

The only piece of advice this person gave me was to take a step back from everything (email, facebook, blogs, etc.), look honestly at where I am, and see what needs to change.

And one thing that I noticed was that things connected to blogging were part of the problem.

So, the decision was made today. I would quit. I didn't feel quite right about it, but it needed to be done.

So, I started to write my farewell address. In it, I started to take parting shots at people.

Which was part of the problem.

Also, it helped me realize something. That this blog was started as a release for me. A place to get things off of my chest. Part of the reason I have held back the past year was because of the opportunities I saw for myself in the future.

Now, I've realized that those opportunities probably won't come any time soon. And, those I shut out probably wouldn't help me in those opportunities.

So, I'm done holding back. I'm done with lying to you, the reader. There won't be 100% disclosure, because there will need to be some privacy.

I do need some time away to get my head in order. I realize that the timing is horrible, with election day 3 weeks away. However, I honestly don't think I'll make it three more weeks.

So, I'll be back Sooner rather than later. I don't know when. It could be tomorrow, it could be three weeks from now, it could be January, or even later.

Until then, so long. Thanks for all the fish.

-Bob

9 comments:

Ryan Shattuck said...

I know exactly how you feel, Bob.

I know exactly how you feel.

Bigger, Little, Bob said...

Everyone needsa a break and change is goos. I can't remember the last time I wanted to write an orginal post. The ideas come but then I ignore the inspiration.

I hope you are okay Bob, I really do. You're a good person and friend, and know that the best pot shots ae those done in person. I may have mine coming, if so, call me.

Get well Bob, I hope to see you soon.

Bigger, little Bob said...

See, I can't even spell anymore.

Jeremy said...

I don't know you but I have enjoyed your blog for a long time. I hope everything works out well for you! Thanks for all the fun bloggy goodness you've given us over the past couple years.

Part of the Plan said...

Bob,

Been there. Done that. Got the tee shirt.

Good luck. Trust me...it helps.

I am Laura said...

You know I am a fan and we have been friends a long time. I have always respected the way you treat people and the person you are. Can't wait for you to come back.

Obi wan liberali said...

I don't know what personal demons you are dealing with, but I know that blogging can be both a release and an added stress.

My biggest problem is, there are some times where my life is overcome by events and it is hard to focus my energies on writing something relevant or effective.

I hope whatever you try works for you to get back to providing the insights so many of us have found helpful.

I would suggest perhaps getting drunk or laid or both, but that link to "Mormons for Obama" might get in the way of such a suggestion.

Allie said...

I hope your break clears things up for you.

I've enjoyed your posts, and I will look forward to reading them again at some point.

MSH said...

Best of luck Bob!

If you ever need some conversation, nonpolitical or otherwise, you have my numbers.

Always the best,

mckay